Wednesday, May 19, 2010

COURT DATE -JUNE 10th

Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Ephesians 3:19-21


Shortly after posting the last post I checked my email and there is was! The Court Date - JUNE 10th! Can you believe it? Forget trying to GUESS-timate... God has a plan and it is better than we could ever ask or imagine. His plan is perfect. In good times .. LIKE THIS!!! And what we think are the worst of times. His ways are so much better than my ways!!

Not to put a damper on the celebration here but I just have to tell you where my heart is today. I have been following a blog for the last month of an incredible family who adopted the sweetest little 3 year old girl (now 4) from Serbia in Oct of 2009. They knew adopting her that she had a severe congenital heart defect but also was very confident that God was calling to proceed with the adoption and that He was going to use her life to reach many. The incredible faith that they had that God would heal her was amazing and This is exactly what HE did... In HIS WAYS NOT OURS! Chrissie had open heart surgery in San Antonio on April 19th and NOW today Chrissie went to be with the LORD! If anyone has some time on their hands to read an incredible journey of faith and love this is where you can find...
Not sure why this all brought me back to the loss of my father. I think because it was during that time that maybe I first really came to the true understanding, submission and faith in God's sovereignty. It was when I completely had a "GOT IT" moment as to HIS WAYS ARE BETTER THAN MY WAYS and HIS THOUGHTS ARE BETTER THAN MY THOUGHTS... and I praise God for the opportunity to learn this lesson.

Chrissie's life did not end at all like her family was thinking it would, but her testimony will go on forever. I can guarantee that the number of people that have have been touched and will be touched, when they hear this testimony is....

"immeasurably more than all that could of been asked or imagined, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen."



Monday, May 17, 2010

Update, Feelings, and Why ?

UPDATE:
No new adoption update YET... We continue to prayerfully and patiently wait for news on a court date. I would like to be able to tell you I am trying not to over think it right now by trying to guess on when we should hear something but this is not exactly true. I have searched blog after blog, read so many websites, did the math myself over and over again to try and guess-timate when we should hear something, what the court date would be and then when we would be able to travel and bring them HOME. I know that I shouldn't be doing this.. it may only lead to discouragement .. but HOW CAN I NOT? So....
The guess-timation ( FOR NOW ) is ... We are hoping to be given a court date by the end of THIS WEEK!!!!

FEELINGS:
People ask me, "Are you so excited?" I wonder, "Do they want the quick simple answer or the real "whats going on in Amy's head" answer?"
Quick answer... SO EXCITED! Hard for me to concentrate or think of anything else!
But here is just a little bit more of what really is going on in my head... Such mixed feelings..
Excited - Yes!
Nervous - completely!
A bit Anxious and even a little sad - totally!
Sad ? Does that sound like a weird one... but it is true... there is part of me that is mourning a little... mourning that the incredible thing we have going right now will be changed and never be the same. Sad that my baby (who actually is 8 yrs old) will no longer be the baby of the house. Sad that I won't have as much time to spend with the other kids, my husband or for myself. And that is just part of it...

So then someone may ask .. "WHY DO THIS THEN?"
Ohhhhhh.... and do I have so many answers for this which will have to be a separate blog of its own.. for now though, I want to share with you this video...

Peter Eide was at the Summit Conference that Mike and I went to a few weeks back.
Loved his testimony and then when he led us in worship... This is one of the songs he sang.. during it he paused a bit and said.. "Now imagine as I sing this next part, this is Jesus answering US after we asked him.. WHY? WHY ME? Why did You choose me? Why did You adopt me? "
Ephesians 1:4-6
For he chose us in him before the creation of the world to be holy and blameless in his sight. In love he predestined us to be adopted as his sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with his pleasure and will— to the praise of his glorious grace, which he has freely given us in the One he loves.